I was born in southern California, then moved to Idaho Falls, Idaho to grow up my first 10 years with my younger sister and my parents. At age 10 I was "transplanted" to mid California. I was diagnosed with my disability( Bi-Polar Disorder w/ Affective Features) at age 15...but not unlike others I went into denial. I didn't want to be different though it never occured to me I always have been. I lived a life full of upheaval, strife and poverty for 16 years until I finally "got it" and got moving, about the same time as my son was diagnosed with the same condition. I decided then and there that running from my condition had not done me any good up till then and that the only way I was going to survive is to turn and fight this thing that has taken over my life.Now I am doing ok..better then ever before...but I have a long ways to go.

I consider myself a good person. I try to help people when I can and be courteous and considerate. I have done alot of soul searching and self analyzing since I left the last relashionship I was in. I realized that a person attracts who they are in someone else.....thats when I realized for anything in my life to change, I must change. I have slowly been doing just that and it is amazing the changes that have happened all around me. I realized that more often then not, people can do to you only what you allow them to....and if you are being treated badly you need to evaluate your part in it, such as sticking around and allowing it to go on by inaction if nothing else. I have learned that while having a man for my own is nice, it is far from neccesary, that I need to see to me and my interests- that this self sacrificing crap I had been doing, did me and my children no good. I need to be happy and healthy to be good for anyone else. I am well on my way to being a fuller and happier person.

Currently I am pursuing my interest and talent in dog training, especially service dogs for the disabled. I also am pursuing my ongoing interest in Middle Eastern Dance (Belly Dancing). All I have to say is it is harder than it looks. Try getting the body going and the fingers with the finger cymbals at the same time...woohooo. I hope to become good at it someday before I am too old to care and have become a member of a troupe, who knows.

I don't consider myself especially gorgeous, pretty or slim (though my male friends are constantly telling me different), but I DO know I am beautiful inside and a person can take me for who and what I am....or they can see themselves to the door. I am real..online and off. I don't see the point in lying online as a person might meet you eventually and find out anyway. Besides, whats the point in lying to make someone like you...you are still at square one- they like someone else..NOT you. I will no longer put up with someone trying to change me to suit them. I will not turn myself into a pretzel bending myself around a mans every whim, want and need.....I have spent my whole life doing that and it never got me anywhere but walked on. From now on I am considering me in the scheme of things.

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